“I did not weep, and it pained me that I could not weep. But I was out of tears. And deep inside me, if I could have searched the recesses of my feeble conscience, I might have found something like: Free at last!…”
This is the passage in “Night” by Elie Wiesel that spoke out to me the most. At the beginning of the novel, Elie was an optimistic boy who wanted to learn more about Kabbalah, which is part of the Judaism religion. However, after the Nazi occupation and the life in the camps, we could slowly see Elie changing his views and become an entirely different person. However, he still helps his father and sticks close to him no matter what. Over time, though, he becomes fed up with how his father is acting and simply the thought of caring for his father instead of thinking about saving his own life. It’s at this quote on page 112 that Elie has fully transformed into someone that his younger self would be shocked to find out that he’ll become, someone void of tears.
I think Elie is arguing how humans can easily change. They just need a trigger or have certain events happen to them that changes their mindset on the world. For example, if there wasn’t the Nazi occupation, Elie would have lived out his life normally, yearning to learn about the Kabbalah. However, the Nazi occupation did happen. And thus, with all those hardships that he had to face, his views on the world and his surroundings and simply everything in his life has become jaded. It was also his father, and the death of his father, that we see how Elie has changed. A younger Elie would have cried that his father has died. An Elie that was just beginning to think that his father was a burden, but has not yet become sick and tired of all the things he has to face, would have been overwhelmed and most likely happy that the chains that have been holding him down were finally gone. However, this Elie is devoid of life, and is beyond the point of mental exhaustion that he can’t even think of how he’s supposed to feel in the situation that the quote takes place in.
This is “Run” by Epik High. I’m relating this video with the quote I chose for “Night” because there’s an inner turmoil for both people in both of these things. Elie’s views become shrouded in darkness, and before his father’s death, he wanted to slip away from caring for his father, or just run. However, even if he does, nothing’s going to change in his life. He’s still going to be stuck in the concentration camps. “Running” could also mean that due to his current thoughts, his thoughts and emotions are going to get nowhere. He’ll be running around in circles or will be running for the rest of his life, for his mindset has completely spiraled down into something void of emotions.